went breaking today..but abit useless.. haiz.. we slack alot lo.. tsk...hate skaters. so irritating and noisy..

aaaaaaaaaaarh!!!!!! saw the nkf posters in the mrt station.. GOT ENERGY!!! GOT MILK!!!!!!!! MILKMILKMILKMILK!!!!!!!!! i miss milk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>< so kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!niunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunainiunai
gooni!ye yi hua!!!ye nai wen!!!!!!!!hahahahah~~~~~~ why is he so cute and so good at breaking?(but i think he old liaoz.. nv break much le:( so he become fatter le ) soon i willthrow all da sly posters away~~~~~ find more niu nai posters..

hmmm.....any i suddenly so mad about milk?~AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!so cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuteeeeeee~!!

so sorry jeff da ge.. i think i was too mean.. i still love you~~~~~^^
haha today i go disturb someone in friendster..:P i am damn bo liaoz la.. hahaha..

haiz.. he so happily(maybe) replied my sms with out knowing it was me.. i wonder what he would do if he knew.. haiz.. i know i should let go.. like how i told coreen to.. but it is damn difficult..
yeah!!! pain the the elbow gone!yiwei say i got osteoporosis ..haha impossible lo.. i tot is only for old ppl....><

i realised.. that my left elbow got pop sound one..at da joint.. pain(ow ow ow ow ow ow!!!!very pain now~><).. how.. LATER MUM DUN LET ME BREAK ANYMORE!!!!then left knee also(abit pain when walk) :

cannot ta han sly sim's face.. so change to this temporarily..
this is soooooooo shuai can! arhhhhhh!!!!!!my niu niu~~~~*muackz*
(maybe i should just go back to liking my idols.. they dunno me.. so they can't hurt me...)
you know.. i kinda.. like vomitting..

i don't vknow why i am in such a bad mood today... once i reach sch then i quite diam le..i think this is the first time i so diam... and i quite like it....maybe should do that more...haiz... i am such a sad case... when i need people to pei me go eat ice cream and cheer up, no one will come.. all busy with their stuff.... not first time liaoz lo.... really lo i dunno who r my real friends lo.... so in the end i go buy haagen daz green tea ice cream (the big tub one $13 one)and sit at home a corner eat.... alone... and finish half liaoz...AAAAAAAAARH... i was happy when i was eating the ice cream but then i got abit full and vomit out abit... then now i very sad again... aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrgh... i know it's not worth it... but i can't help it... i am too depressed...

yup...someone's back..
i dunno what to do now.. i regret pressing send...
i dun dare check my email.. i don't know what i want..
if there is a reply, i will worry about what will be in it.. but if there is no reply.... i guess i will be upset too.. you know.. at least i know that he won't come here.. he won't see this.. he won't see how much it matters to me.... i really dunno what to do.. my hands are shaking.. vision blurred by tears.. i dun haf anymore strength in me..i don't care what nessa say.. i dun care if she say my blog got alot of rubbish.. all i know now is i wish i have never known him..

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hmmm..recently alot of interesting thing happen~
haha that day tuesday after sch yiwei call me to go esply.. haha so i pon cca(whateva la.. next week then face da music)
haiz but so sad i sit there in my sch u cannot break coz no shorts and clothes to change to.. haha so i was there complaining.. was with this crew called gospel movement(liddat spell?) hmmm...very nice.. not abit like the other crew with them..(dun throw their face so i dun put the crew name here)wah lao got one person very mean lo.. he burp so loud first lo.. so rude so i stare ma.. then he say "you dun burp arh?"then roll eyes at me... knn.. i damn pissed.. but whateva kinda funny..oh then there is this guy named kenneth(k.poh big head?!!!hahaha) look very like niu nai.. haha but i think i say until people paiseh:P

then friday night went to some "dome" at yishun to break.. haha so fun.. then the people(paktao,clarence,orange) very funny.. hmm.. maybe i will nv go esply anymore..must escape.. hahaha..
thankz guys for teachin' us and letting us session with u and being funny!~^^
hope we nv disturb u guys..:)

hmmm.. stomache(i dunno how to spell) better today~
i told.. and i am starting to regret..ARH!!!!!!
tml go back to sch liaoz.. so sad..and tml is my dad's b'day... dunno what to get... tsk..
oh and today is choco's birthday!
happy birthday to you!
happy birthday to you!~
happy birthday to choco~
happy birthday to youuuuuuuu!~~~~

haha wonder how yoshi did in his competition yesterday~:)

*whine...whine...whines...*
i am feeling so miserable...
not feeling well now...
i want to just lie somewhere and do nothing...*looks at my bed* but i have already been lying there and doing nothing for the past 5 hours le...
haiz...miserable...

today is supposed to be the day i tell... should i?... or shouldn't i?????

*sigh...*
haha just come back from expo watch Disney on Ice Princess Classics...
it was sooooooo sweet lo.. haha until now my i can still feel the atmosphere and "see" all the glittery sparkly princess things~ hahah
but too bad the main one is cinderella.. haha i prefer Ariel~(little mermaid)haha don't know why, but she has been my idol since young..
tsk.. there were so many little kids there la!(fei hua! of coz la.. it is for kids ma) but i realised actually all the princesses stories are like... my time one lor.. not my sis's time one.. except maybe mulan(and she is not even a princess) hahaha~
hmm.. it is like a trip down memory lane like that..i can actually remember the lyrics to da songs.. = ='
but now hor... i am thinking WHEN WILL MY PRINCE FINALLY APPEAR?!?!?!?!? = =
haha isn't tt what every gal wish for? haha perfect guy, perfect love.. perfect everything..= =
but in real life there is no such thing.. so hor, no wonder so many people like disney's stories.. all happily ever after one..
haha but haf to say lo.. disney really know how to earn $$~ all the little kids buy all da expensive souvenirs.. haha my mom no want buy for my sis coz she say too ex.. actually, if is me(and my mom not around) i would have bought something la... coz i like to keep souvenir things la..(plus if got Ariel one then i will want even more)you know i really think it is not childish to go watch this lo.. i think it rox!psst.. if got a guy watch with u even better.. = =
haha

one day le.. i wonder how ______ is doing...i miss ______ alot.. wonder what ______ is doing now.. I HAVE DECIDED TO TELL!!!(not face to face la..maybe email..)

wow.. floorskillz really rox.. hahha

12 march
had flag raising in the morning... wah lao so tired lo.. walking around to make selfish people donate $$ = = actually i find flag raising a waste of time... i rather go children's home or sth..

then watched Series of unfortunate events with some class mates... the show quite cute la.. but actually quite boring le..

then later go down to p.s to watch floor skillz.. yoshi really rox lo!!!! wooo~haha very funny...before floor skillz start that time yoshi sitting one side there praticing ma... then i was like in full sch uniform lo.. then i just walk over to sit down admist all da breakers.. then like damn out of place la.. hahaha so went to change lo.. wah lao alot of people.. very hot.. good thing can go sit at steff there.. directly opposite ______.... good view.. haha
yoshi's gp battle first~ haha no need to see i also know yoshi group sure win the whole thing one...
then the rest all quite good la but i nv really go notice until the people i know were breaking lo.. haha but the guy with the afro wig really damn funny! wow... norbin battle that time very scary.. like want to fight.. dunno what happen also.. he look so pissed.. then sani still threaten to disqualify both crews if this happens again... xia si wo..but norbin really really good la (hahha 1. he is really good...2.coz i only know him, yoshi and larry so abit biased hahahha)

overall the whole thing very nice lo...enjoyed watching..haha but actually during the whole thing, there are times i could feel myself going to cry lo..looking at ______ dancing..laughing... clapping???...everything makes me miss ______ even though ______ is right infront of me coz it is like "so near yet so far" lo..

dun want to wash my hand coz ______ shook it.. haiz... i have less then 24 hrs left.. should i tell or not.. even as i am typing this i am going to cry again la..(ok.. the tears come out liaoz..)

13 march
first go with xh to meet wallace lo.. wa lao.. really scary he wear all black(even black gloves) then alot of rings...cross necklace... earring.. then the chain belt(come~ doggie!!~) .. the worst is his nails la~! so sharp and long.. then use to scratch people.. crazy...then i think now got people win me in staring contest liaoz.. :( (but xiao hui better go snf die for doing what she did...) hahaha can't believe he know me when i dun even know him at all ("oh my god! it's yingjie!")..seems like i really damn notorious in the idol-chasing scene... = = then go far east shop,then walk to p.s..go spot light.. walk arouns whole of p.s.. take neoprints then go watch floorskillz~
surprisingly i nv cry or come close to crying lo..
maybe too exciting liaoz.. yoshi against ftc... the last time shut up person got injured so change to norbin...haha both sides also got people i know.. so inthe end yoshi'd gp get first lo.. then norbin's gp get 2nd.. congrats to both!!!!!! haha yay! took photo with yoshi!~
poor yoshi injure his knee.. haiz.. bboys must be more careful!~

dun feel like washing hand again....i guess this would be the last time....haiz....
ok.. now going to cry all over again... i guess i could only try to remember that moment til.....i forget him? ( but is it possible?how can i forget...)i feel very useless lo..

just came back from sec 4 lifeskills camp.. so fun! last night's formal dinner was FUN!i wear blue tube top and white flowy skirt.. then miss ong say very nice!~ hahah then ppl say i got nice body~ hahahahah! but... i dun think so .. hahahha..
then me, flo , steff and hui qi got appointed to be like runners like that help the teacher coz must get the girls to go up the stage class by class.. then i was like running around in 3-inch heels.. oh man! now my feet so pain......:( haha then miss ong say i damn li hai can run in heels.. hahahaha
then KT and the other teachers were like dancing lo! oh my god.. actually.. he is kinda cute.. aha i think i will love geog now~!!! (NOOO!!!! this can't be!! nononono.. he is not cute at all.. look like ..eeeeeeeeeew...)

haha da remember got one waiter really damn shuai!!! hahaha then i just go up and ask to take photo.. hahah so lame.. then at that time he clearing table lo.. so he was like "huh? now arh?" coz he holding a tray with empty glasses on it.. so i was like "put on the table la!" hahahaha = =

wad eva lo.. now i dun even remember how he looks like le.. :P

tomorrow is floor skillz... GOOD LUCK TO ALL DA BBOYS I KNOW(which isn't many..)
hahaa~

....life is so unfair..
it is soooooooooo cruel....
fate allow me to see him for the first time.......second time... third time... ..............
let me haf his email... friendster.. number...
but in the end.... it didn't allow me to be with him.. *cries*and even let someone else be with him....

toooooooooodaaaaaaaaaaaaay is my birthday!~~~~
thankz to all those who wished me happy birthday~ haha thankz for da presents.. thankz to koh yu yiwei and eileen for pei-ing me today~ thankz ppl for da smses.. thankz for remembering!~:P YAY! jerry remembered!!!!! haha...
you know.. i not greedy or what la.. but.. deep down inside i wish tt that person would say "happy birthday" to me too.. but he dun even know tt today is my b'day la.... :( i dun ask for much lo.. just talk to me and i will be damn happy le lo... haiz..

oh! and thankz to yoshi for coming to nygh!!!! haha he so cuuuuuuuute!