** fairytalez **

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

** CCA totally sux **

waste of time...
i could haf finished up all those hw!!!!!!
i guess u can see i'm not really interested in blogging now..
so busy... and confused...and pissed..
but u know i DO know that he isn't everything..
yet why am i still like that?

let's rest at 3:59 PM

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Monday, June 27, 2005

** hols end... = my life end **

dieeeeeeee
alot of hol hw nv dooooooooooo
must plan...
i think today i do eng:funtional writing proposal,compo,compre
chinese: ying yong wen, miao xie wen, SIA(3 articles + meaning+ conclusion)
cme: SIA (5 gan xiang)
e.lit: guide book, write a effective introduction
:(
i want darling............

let's rest at 6:37 PM

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Thursday, June 23, 2005

** :/ **

been awake since 5o clock..can't go back to sleep...
so i guess i was grumpy
so i shouted at my sis,gave her a slap and laughed when she cried..
HAHAHA
and nope, i'm not feeling bad about it..

the trip was ok la..
you can say i'm a ungrateful brat.. but really, i can't stand my parent's nagging the whole trip= =
disney land just rock!
hahaha
my fave's fantasy land and the animation place..
sleeping beauty's castle is sooooo nice..esp during the fireworks at night..
in the day it's nice too~(i'm crapping)
i saw someone taking wedding photos there... I DUN CARE I WANT TO DO THAT NEXT TIME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!oh and i made a wish at the wishing well..
ya.. so stupid... but i do hope it comes true!~:P dammit i'm turning into a disney-freak
didn't go anywhere other then disney.. haha... oh and i only bought a princess pen.. it has aurora,belle,snow white(what a stupid name),ariel(I'LL NAME MY DAUGHTER THAT!!!!!!!!),jasmine and cinderella on it.. oh.. and princess lollipops.. they are star-shaped~!

i really missed him alot!~

let's rest at 9:10 AM

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

** dammit **

some people can really make your mood change damn fast..all it takes is one/two tags..
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i still dunno what he was thanking me for..haiz...
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NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i know i said "if i can go up get autograph, it doesn't matter if i dun see energy for this time liaoz.." but now i suddenly feel greedy.. now i'd rather dun go U.S... TOMORROW GOT HANDSHAKE SESSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MONDAY I WANT TO SEND THEM OFF!!!!:(

let's rest at 10:57 PM

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** won't be in sg til 22 june~ **

goin' to disneyland = = hahaha
miss me o!
oh no!!!!! i'm gonna miss *ahem!* so much!!!:(

watch psc nite just now.. energy sooooooooo cute~
i noticed milk can nv stand still.. sing slow song still can pop.. hahahaha! kawaii!
then kunda is like blur blur one.. i look at ahdi.. very sad le.. he doesn't seem happy.. like even if he smile or laugh.. but it doesn't reach his eyes.. it pains me to see him like that.. shuwei "gek" face very funny! milk's too.. you know.. like trying to look emotional... everytime i see them do that i want to laugh.. hahaha!

ai ni bu shi yao ting ni gan xie wo..

let's rest at 10:38 PM

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** I AM SO XING FU!!!!! **

heh heh!~ now update about just now the energy event..
met lina and erisher at 3.45 at harbour front mrt station.. then went to eat lunch..
then queue for 6 hours...
i dunno y today they seem to be slower leh...poor ah di had to take a 5 min break... because of his back.. so xin tong ><
the autograph session start at 7.. but as u know la.. they always late one.. so maybe around 8 then start signing.. then at 1o+ we start to freak out liaoz...like.. "wah lao! if i nv get my cd signed i'll ...blahblahblah" haha
then just when we are able to move forward in the queue, some knnbccb(sorry i damn pissed) want cut queue.. THEY DARE CUT MY QUEUE!!!!! TAMADE!!!!then i also dunno why i just automatically shout liaoz lo.. "WAO LAO EH! GO TO THE BACK HOR!BU YAO TAI GUO FEN" ok la.. isn't that fierce.. but the volume damn loud lo.. so... hahahaha then later those people go to the back liaoz still keep staring at them..make them feel bad.. dammit lo.. THEY ARE GUYS!!!!and look so tamade fuck-ugly.. not that guys cannot be energy fans la.. just super pissed at people who cut, or try to cut my queue..but hor, two guys managed to cut lor.. but i also nv let them go easily lo.. keep saying them lo.. haiz.. I HATE THESE PEOPLE.. ok.. what ever.. then later finally i reach the barricades infront of the stage le..so happy...took a few videos of the guys... then got kunda wave to the cam one..coz thankz to my powerful voice.. hahahaha then actually can take shuwei one.. but at that time we wave to me i blur liaoz.. forget to take..hahahaha
when going up the stage, that ding zhi yong so idiot..come congratulate me= =.. hahah he was like "congratulations! you made it!"= =
then i was telling lina.."wow! i'm so touched! we made it!i want to..." i nv finish saying what i want to do then that stupid zhi yong say "don't cry arh!" wah lao.. ma lu.. he remember me only for crying.. but true la.. i always cry.. energy event cry.. machi event cry... kemi event cry... haha actually i cry not coz i sad le. is coz i also dunno y.. just like very touched lo.. also dunno what touched me.. just suddenly alot of feelings..
haha so milk was the first one..then ahdi,kunda,shuwei..then when i'm still 3 people away from milk i already talk to him liaoz.. haha think the ppl infront not that happy.. "sorry!" just very excited.. so i was like "niunai!niunai!!!!!!"while that stupid work people try to take my booklet.. (i was holding on to it to prevent it from moving to the end too fast.. or else no chance to talk liaoz..) then i started to say just anything that pops into my mind.. "niunai!ni hao! ke yi bang wo xie ming ma?" (dammit! stupid universal people dun let...:( i want him write my name!!!!!!!!!!!)then "niu nai! zhe ci yan chang hui shi showbiz lai ma?" (will the showbiz dancers come for this concert?) ans: bu shi ye..ying gai hui cou ji hen duo bu tong de dancers ba(no.. should be gatherin many different dancers) then he ask me "ni ming tian hui lai kan wo men de yan chu ma?" haha so wierd.. suddenly pop out this question..then i was like "er....er..... bu zhi dao ye.. "i shall just pretend he looked abit disappointed~haha even if i'm bluffing myself..haha who cares i happy can liaoz.. oh wait.. nv finish yet.. i asked "na qiao ke li hui lai ma?" i also dunno how this question pop out one..hahah! but milk say "bu hui" :( sad.. i wanted to ask choco if can bring some of the showbiz badges one..when i was talking to milk,i forgot that i was already infront of ahdi liaoz... (which means i totally skipped talking to ahdi!(DAMMIT! I WANTED TO TELL HIM SO MUCH!TODAY'S LEAD SHOULD BE HIM LOR!!!!!!!HE'S LEAVING!*slaps myself*)(and be cause of the lina and erisher cannot talk to milk and ahdi much..:P lina say she nv even haf chance to talk to her shuwei..oops)then milk cannot write my name for me ma..but i nv gif up, when i come to kunda, i started to pester him la.. (fuck that stupid old woman behind so i failed again) then i think i look damn sad.. kunda say "bu yao jing la.. wo bang ni hua ke xin hao ma?"(nevermind la.. i help you draw a heart~)haha SOOOOO CUTE~then he draw one heart~heh heh~then the last one liaoz.. shuwei.. i know write name very difficult le.. then i think the universal worker know i wanted them to write name.. then before i could say anything she was like "dui bu qi bu neng xie ming" then i immediately "wo mei you jiao ta xie ming la!" :P nv see shuwei's reaction.. but i think he abit shocked..hhahaha!who cares.. then i was like "SHUWEI!!!!!!!! bang wo xie jia you ke yi ma?zhe yang wo kao shi shi neng na lai kan..haha"(shuwei, help me write jia you can?like that, exam that time i can look at it..) then he really write~ haha so happy~ then he still "ni yao jia you o!!!!" haha so cute..then i happily go off.. and hai lina they all dun really haf chance to talk.. i tell them le lor! cannot let me go first one.. = =
hmmm.. though we queued for 6 hrs just to see them for less then a minute.. but it's really worth it.. if you're not a fan u won't understand.. it isn't really the autograph that matters.. is that very short time we can interact with them..like bring them closer.. you can say "why so stupid go and waste time on idols who doesn't know you" to us they are not idols anymore.. but they are our "jing shen zi zhu" you know.. it doesn't matter if they dun know us.. abit difficult to explain la.. but it's like .. we know them enough le.. (oh! how unselfish we are~~! *sees ness rolls eyes) people say "they only want to take all your money arh! you think they really care?" dammit.. i dun believe lo.. these people dun see celebrities as people.. i think this is scary.. (i mean, if u want to say 5566 can la.. but energy...machi...they ARE HUMAN)putting it as "they only want your money" is like..so wrong lo..these guys are just doing their job just as any normal people do lo.. it's just that they earn more...but do you think being a celeb is easy? they sacrifice so much more then normal people.. ah di..sacrificed his health.. all of them sacrificed their privacy..they can't do things normal people can do easily..like going to the market..or going on a date..people just dun see these things lo..i'm not a celebrity..nor am i even close to being one.. but hearing people say that celebs are just out to cheat our money really makes me angry lo..

then recently the news keep writing about xiao S getting married and about her being pragnant.. WAH LAO EH! why must they care so much? it's not like their daughter getting married.. then they turn something good into something bad.. it pisses me off.. = = ..

I LOVE ENERGY!!!!

let's rest at 1:39 AM

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Friday, June 10, 2005

** ok... their plane gonna arrive anytime liaoz.. **

= = and i'm still at home... actually i bathe and get ready already lo.. just that... i am too lazy to get my butt off the chair... so i'm still stuck here....
SOON I'LL BE ON THE SAME ISLAND AS ENERGY!!!!!!!!!

actually i'm not really thinking about energy......
AAAAARGH..... i can't stand myself...
i really cannot stand myself i want to ma zhang hua le...

!@$!#$^@&*@^&@$^%@$%&@^#$%!^$@$%&@$%^!$#^&@%*&@%^&^@$%@#$^@$%&@$&@$%^@$%^%@#^@#$^!@#$%^#$!^!@#^@#%^@$#^@$%^&%&%^&*%#^*@$%^!$!@^!&%^#*&^%*@$^@%#%@#&#^$*%&*%&#%^@#%%@#$^@$%&@$#^&@$^@$%^#$%&^#$^@$%^$%^$%^$%^$%^@$%^$^%$^$%^$@%^@^%$@%^@#%%^@#^@^%@#%^@#^@#%!$^!$^@%$^@#$^@$%^@%$^@#%^@

not enough.....

#@$!#$^@$%&%*@(#^&!#($^!#%*@%!@$%!^@%&@$^!%!^!#$^!$@#$!@#%#$&@%$!#$!^%@$%&#%^*^%@#$^@$%&^#$%!#$^%#$&#$%&%@%$!#@^$%*&^$@#$%$$@#@&&^*&@#$@#$^%*&&

|-| + 3 |\| U 3 >| 3 >| | 7 | <----- i'm so obvious :/

i want cotton candy:/

let's rest at 11:42 AM

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** should i? **

go... dun go.... go... dun go....AAAAAARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!should i go airport?want to go le.. but think of later will see many ppl then sianz liaoz...
go............. dun go........................ go...........dun go..
:/

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGHH!!!!!!!!ok.. actually energy isn't really what i'm thinking about now...
does he think about me too ?
dun think so ba... so busy with sch..........
WAH LAO! NV MSG FOR ONE DAY THEN I MISS HIM LIAOZ..
go on.. laugh.. i know nessa is laughing..
can imagine her quite high-pitched *hahaha* with the ^^ type of face..

wo bu yao gu shi jiu zhe yang jie shu
wo hai yao wo men de gu shi ji xu xia qu...
dammit stupid computer dun allow me to type chinese

IF I WANT TO GO AIRPORT I HAF TO GO NOW!
heck..
i'm not in the mood..

let's rest at 10:55 AM

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

** :) these guys like very free hor?:) **

tsk too long nv go yahoo groups so miss out on alot of things..:(
milk's brother is so cute~^^
remember last time after concert i was at the hotel then i saw him.. but i didn't know it's milk's bro.. then think he very cute~ haha coz he wave and got that ^^ kind of smile hahahaha~

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let's rest at 3:24 PM

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** eg msgs in the cd booklet.. **

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was reading in the bus la.. then i cry lo! haha but i dun care.. ppl see then see la..

let's rest at 3:02 PM

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** hao xiang ni... **

tomorrow is friday...
tomorrow.. i can see them again...
i miss them sooooooooooooooo much!!!!!
i'm sooooooooo excited!!!!!!!! arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
milk's new hair style!ooh! so cuuuuute!
kunda got curly hair.. = = but he like nv change..
will shuwei still be that talkative?
ah di....ah di.........ah di..................I DUN WANT AH DI TO LEAVE!!!!
but i wan him to go and let his back get better..everytime see him in pain very xin tong.. cannot be selfish and keep ahdi in energy when it isn't good for his health..
hey! maybe by the time he come back into energy he will be married with kids! hahaha
i won't be jealous you know? i'd be very happy for him~ and the same goes for the other 3.. on the whole i think the energy fans aren't that childish as the 5566 fans la.. i mean, they are only idols lo.. those who think they can haf chance with the idols should just WAKE UP.. everytime i see those xiao meimei i want to slap them= =
speaking of xiao meimei.. tomorrow must get ready to see alot ba..= =dammit..
i know why ness hates squeezing in qian ming hui's le.. = =

you know in the energy cd sleeve..shuwei wrote..he's like living in a dream..wished that he'll nv wake up...but now it seems like someone's gonna wake him up..
i feel just like that last night...
sometimes you just don't want to wake up.. just want to stay at that moment..
coz you won't know what's gonna happen next..
AIYA I DUNNO HOW TO SAY LA!
nessa will still be the first to marry la!
coz who know's when he'll be ready..
who know's how much longer he gonna let me wait..- -
but you know what? i dun care.. just take things one step at a time..
so now the important thing is the letters! must go prepare four now~a very very long one for ah di..~^^
should i go buy nice paper?or just use foolscap?

let's rest at 2:21 PM

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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

** help! **

how to add song?
i want add yan lei de wei dao..
see my blog got theme.. haha and so zhum the energy guys cry for me to put their crying pics.. hahahahahahha
*slaps myself*
i am so mean..
i'm not crying le.. ah di is just leaving to recuperate..
even if he really leave, energy will always be energy! niu nai say we must support them, so i'm gonna support them!
I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*i think if niu nai ask me to jump down the building, i also will= =.......pulling him down with me also!hahahahaha!!
haha i am mad..
speaking of niunai..
the mao pai milk.....
I AM SO ANGRY LO!!(fake one)
COZ I GOT CHEATED INTO GAO BAI-ing FIRST.. DAMMIT..
i dun wan to blog liaoz.. 881~
shit la.. i cannot type too much... yiwei,brain,eileen,wy,ness,shir.. if u wan to know you can call me.. that is... if i haven't gotten to you yet..

I VERY SHE BU DE AH DI!!!!!!!!!!!
(good thing he not my fave....)*slaps myself again* ..i am so selfish..
WHAT IF IS NIU NAI HOW?! i bet i would have died of heart attack when i hear the news.. dun even haf to wait til commit suicide...

let's rest at 6:51 PM

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

** i am sooooooo stupid **

that day he msg me at 5.30 am...
to complain that he cannot sleep = =
just like that.. nothing else.. know what got me so pissed?
i replied.. = = and he didn't even haf the basic courtesy to reply back..
sometimes i really wanna chop off my hands so i cannot msg back.. dammit..
i'm so pissed... and if he's sorry that he haf been ignoring me then at least show it right? all lies lo.. stupid excuses..i think... go to hell..i'm not gonna wait around that's for sure..
AND NOW I STILL HAF THE BIG BIG BIG PROBLEM OF GOING TO THE ENERGY CONCERT BY MYSELF!
NOT GOOD FOR MY XING XIANG OK?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HMPH!
plus it's gonna be damn sianz la... though won;t be bored coz is energy concert.. but like one person go very strange lo.. :/
LINA LA! hmph!
and it doesn't help that the rest all dun like energy liaoz...
hmm this final fantasy album isn't that good..
alot of wierd things.. i especially HATE it when they add in english when their english is so lousy....inthe end make the song like so cheap like that.. abit like jungiery stars.. i mean.. their pronounciation is ok.. but the tenses and whatever is crap lo.. just stick to chinese.. the fans won't like them less if there isn't english..- - stupid record company
it's not like english is that wonderful a language.. i hate it when chinese look up to english so much.. and i especially hate it when a chinese say that he/she hate chinese and think that english is better.. that's so.... grrrrr.... like looking down on your own language/culture.. it's like looking down on yourself.. then those people want to be cool or whatever then keep trying to act ang moh..it won't make those ang moh respect them lo.. who would look up to someone who looks down on his/her own culture.. stupid bananas...
i admit i used to be a little like that in sec 1.. when i was greatly influenced by ang moh singers.. that's the speech my dad gave me..
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wo xiang wo zhi dao yan lei de wei dao...
i guess, i know how tears taste like..?
(salty)
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i want 5566 to split..
i want jungiery star building to crash
i want 5566 and sun de rong to be inside at that time..
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

let's rest at 12:35 PM

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Monday, June 06, 2005

** haha FOUND IT! **

found sw crying..hahah and this kissy pic!~I WANT TO BE KUNDA!

let's rest at 3:39 PM

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** i am so bian tai **

just in case u are wondering "why yj put these crying pics?" no la.. i not bian tai like to see them cry la.. just sad ma.. then if put me crying very ugly.. so i put their crying pics lo!~ hahah and if u are wondering why no shuwei crying pic. hahaha coz too ugly.. :P kk.. jokin'.. just can't find.. I LOVE MILK!

let's rest at 3:25 PM

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

** milk's 4 june msg~ **

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i have just finished dance practice when some fans told me they are already queuing at xi men ding

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was very touched when i heard that, so i immediately went there with my brother

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seeing the fans' love for us,

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i was really happy, i cried, thank you for giving ENERGY energy, ENERGY must really let you see the most "SHA"

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ENERGY, really loves you!

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i love....you, the recent news are too (what is gan shang?) sad?

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we are NOT splitting, don't be sad anymore

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we are the most ____ ENERGY!~

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everyone must be happy when we meet on 4 june

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you must let ENERGY be more POWER ok?

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show ENERGY how much you love ENERGY on 4 june ok?!

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you must support us..help us promote!! see ya on 4 june ok?~

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byebye!

AAAAAARH!!!!!!!ok.. i'm a lousy translater...hahah
I LOVE MILK! MILK!!!!!!!!!MILK!!!!!!!MILK!!!!

let's rest at 10:37 PM

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Saturday, June 04, 2005

** CRYING AGAIN **

JUST BOUGHT ENERGY CD!!!
haha when i go into the shop they still nv even unpack the cds yet..hahaha
MILK'S NEW HAIR ROX!so MAN!
then i take the cd i was like so happy~!!!^^
but when i open it up i want to cry..
they are splitting right..
yes they are splitting.. how to have 3 ppl only?
even if they want to add new ppl the fans also won't let! NONE of them can be replaced!not even toro!
actually i already accept le.. wish them all the best in everything they do!~
i am actually not sad anymore.. because all the wonderful memories are enough..
i will FOREVER remember energy..
so what if they really really really split?as long as the fans know and always acknowledge that energy is the best, their spirit will live forever.. ENERGY will live FOREVER..

ok.. now the BIG problem..
WHO IS GONNA GO TO THE CONCERT WITH ME?!!!!!! LINA FANG WO FEI JI!
shit la.. how.. haiz.. the most go alone lo.. but cry alone not fun one...:(

let's rest at 5:29 PM

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** streetfest **

pretended that there's sch today..then meet yiwei in sch then go esply break.. haha time seems to past so fast when breaking.. then met kohyu and eileen to shop and take neoprints.. it's nice to meet up with old friends~^^
then later me and yiwei went to watch streetfest.. missed yoshi~ :(
haha saw people i dun like to seebut just ignore like stranger like that lo.. haha
oh by the way a few days ago yiwei was betting with me that norbin will say hi we saw him lo.. i didn't think so.. coz he very scary..then we bet a subway cookie lo.. well...................I LOST:( haf to pay for her cookie..hahaha it's nice that a friend you nv talk to for very long to still at least wave to you..haha
i'm so tired.. typing crap and falling asleep soon.. nitez!~

let's rest at 12:09 AM

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

** SHUT UP! **

who am i kidding..
after reading his whole blog... i find that we are from two totally different worlds.. why did i like him in the first place.. is it ONLY because he looks like someone else i idolise... i didn't believe myself too but now i really suspect..IS IT?! i myself don't even know..
we are as different as night and day..even the horoscopes say so.. ya.. i know it's abit stupid to totally believe these things but...i really dunno anymore..
i don't even know what i'm trying to say now.. so confused.. i want to shut out the whole world....i can't even cry in peace..
i keep saying i want to let go.. in the end i keep coming up with excuses...just to drag on.... at least abit longer...maybe..............
but now i don't see any hope anymore..don't want to struggle anymore... i'm so tired .. WO YAO FANG XIA!!!!!!!!i know i can....but do i WANT to? but i HAVE to right?.. i don't know... i really don't know.....so many times i just want to DELETE that number away..try to forget..
now i really know the meaning of jing tui liang nan..its as if..i'm hanging off a cliff.. if i let go, i'll fall and die.. but if i try to climb back up, there's naraku's demons going to eat me...both also die......and there's no inuyasha to save me!!
you know what songs i HATE now? those STUPID love songs about hope and CRAP.. all LIES.. those stupid "i believe" CRAP.. i don't believe in these crap anymore..
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i should let go... i really should.....erm.... right??
I WILL LET GO...
(commercial break)
AAAAAAARH!!!!!!!! ENERGY ON RADIO!!!!!!! TIAN YU DI ROX!!! ARH!!!!!!!!!! I WANT BUY THE CD!!!!!MILK TALKING!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAARH!!!!! THEY DANCE WITH DUNNO WHAT "ZHONG DONG" FEMALE DANCER.. they say will be more "chen shou" ...OH NO! WHAT IF THEY CHANGE TOO MUCH?!!!!!THE SONG ALL SO DIFFERENT!!!WHAT IF I DON LIKE ANYMORE?!!!! CANNOT!!!!! I'LL ALWAYS SUPPORT ENERGY!
FUCK!!!!! AH DI REALLY LEAVING ENERGY! REALLY!!!! the dj just say one.. they might as well split now... it's not like i am mean la.. but energy.. cannot lose ANYONE.. toro can go whatever.. but.. now left3 people le.. it really pains me to see them like that..to see them leaving one by one.. *k..i'm crying non-stop now* i thought toro was enough..i thought i cried enough... then now another one....
but at least one thing is for sure.. the 5-person energy,the 4- person energy...and now the 3- person energy...no matter what i'll forever remember milk,kunda,shuwei,ahdi and even toro.....i never regretted anything i did because of them..i don't regret buying the cds..concert tix..chasing..writing those letters..
you know what?..maybe it isn't that bad that energy split..the only thing is that i am VERY VERY VERY NOT SHUANG THAT energy would end before 5566..NO MATTER WHAT ENERGY IS BETTER.. and u know what? energy may end physically but their spirit will live FOREVER!
(backz)
I'M NOT IN THE MOOD TO BLOG ABOUT HIM ANYMORE!

let's rest at 4:22 PM

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** hurry post when i can..hahahah **

don't know why everytime i try to use the comp then there'll ALWAYS be someone/something stopping me.. tsk.. MY MOM LA!!!!!!!!!!grrrr....
got report book back.. fail very very very badly.. i'm not gonna show to THEM until after holiday ends hahahaha~(at least i TRY to hide la..)
and every one reminds me ALL THE TIME "o levels coming!""must study!" I KNOW I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU GUYS ARE JUST MAKING ME MORE STRESSED LO!I HATE O LEVELS I HATE STUDYING!

i really dunno why i'm like that.. in the past i wouldn't gif a shit even if i like the person..heck care.. then now i'm like totally lifeless..= =

IS AH DI LEAVING ENERGY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T KNOW ANY NEWS LO!!if so i will go get ready tissue paper.. during energy concert i'm going to bring a box of tissue..
yesterday saw energy on yu le bai fen bai.. milk's hair so nice~ short short one:)

hmm resently heard alot of nice songs on radio... must haf the radio on 24/7 haha

let's rest at 3:49 PM

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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

** GRUUUUUUUMPY **

i really really really dun like nessa leh!!!!!
(coz she say the things ALMOST always true :/ )

*AHEM* *AHEM*
= = apologise for ignoring me and say coz he thinking about stuff dunno what decision making.. WHATEVER LA!! I HATE BEING IGNORED!hmph.. dunno why i still so nice and reply him.. should ignore him back!= =
i want to be a selfish brat >:(
coz if i am selfish i wouldn't be bothered..so i wouldn't be grumpy.. then nessa won't say i am grumpy..

AND IT'S DMS(during) NOW!! and after my period, it'll be AMS(after)...= i am just a grumpy person

i am crapping..haiz.. holiday now but still cannot rest.. everyday so tired..still have to go sch.. good thing tml last day...

energy's new song very nice.. heard tt the cd release on 4 june but i hear radio they say out liaoz.. then i so long nv go out.. everything also dunno liaoz..

i'm not me anymore..AAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

let's rest at 8:45 PM

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